as stated...

About the Poem
I have learned that sometimes you fall in love with people, who don't feel the same way about you. I have been in such a situation.

This poem was written for someone who I gave my trust, love and friendship to, only to have my heart broken, and my trust displaced. If you are ever in a similar situation, you know how it feels to be used.

I Was Reminded
by Alicia S

As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me

As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way them seems to read my thoughts

As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing

cloudy skies

for the past several days i have been thinking about going back home, then again maybe i am experiencing "homesickness". this is what i hate most, a sickness that has no cure, in a matter of minutes you will feel like you are alone in the crowd searching for someone or somebody that you know for a long time and you are dying to talk to or touch that person. a feeling of longingness. whenever i met someone here they only say one thing, "your eyes are full of sadness". . .

because, i miss myself more than anything in this world.

i wonder...

this is what my as(s)trology tells me...

You're due to meet someone new, unique and quite rebellious now -- in other words, a kindred spirit. And just as you'd imagine, you won't be running into this person under anything but the most unusual circumstances. Of course, that will make your meeting even more interesting for both of you. Go ahead and cut to the chase as soon as you start talking. The universe obviously wanted you two to meet. Figure out why and get busy on the project.

on the otherhand, i remember that there was this lady who read my future through her cards that i am going to meet with someone and will propose to me. but then again, we'll see. and i will tell you, readers, what the score will be.