I have to stop and keep going...

it's been three weeks now...and the pain still lingers.

i really dont know what to do anymore, at this moment in time all i ever wanted to do is to runaway, far far away from you.

i wish there is a pill, stronger than sleeping pill, that can erase all my memories of you...

you don't know how much it hurts, so please stop asking how i feel

I thought I learned my lessons well when it comes to love, but hey here I am again...for the nth time dragging myself into oblivion. How many times do I have to feel this to tell myself ...its enough! Why do I have to keep on repeating the same thing over and over again? What is wrong with my feelings, seems like I never get tired of giving in. Now look at me, my eyes are puffy, I cried because I let myself delve into this situation.

I just hope that the next time I will be ready to accept the things that I can not and will not have in the first place...